The Eloira Effect

I haven’t had the energy to write for the past few days.
Or think.
Or do much of anything.

But writing helps clear my mind.
So here I am.

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Physically, I’m not feeling great.

I have pain around my navel. It’s tender and hurts even when I touch it.

After speaking with my doctor, she explained that after birth, the body goes through a lot—organs shifting back into place, tissues healing.

I just need to rest and take my meds. But resting is hard.

I’ve been doing everything I shouldn’t be doing.
Working in the backyard, cleaning, lifting, pushing…

Now I’m hoping the pain is just part of healing and not because I overdid it.

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The truth is, sitting still is dangerous for my mind.
If I sit too long, I overthink.
I stress.
I cry.
I spiral.

Sometimes, I’d rather stay busy than feel everything.